When Life Isn’t Linear

April 15, 2024

When I first started by business, I thought that year by year everything would seamlessly move up and to the right. 

Approaching almost 5 years of business and having our first baby, I’ve learned that life isn’t linear.

And that’s the beauty of it.

I’ve been through slow seasons, thriving seasons, seasons where I can’t seem to keep my head above the water, balanced seasons, medium seasons, pandemic seasons. And through it all, I’ve seen God come through and refine my faith time and time again.

Holding the Tensions

To the entrepreneur reading this you KNOW the tension.

It’s the balance of trusting the Lord with the future of your business while doing the best you can with what you have.

It’s praying for the right connections and more sales, yet being content in the Lord with where you’re at right now.

It’s knowing that apart of your calling as an entrepreneur is wealth creation yet not allowing money to have a hold on your heart.

It’s being so grateful you have a business you love, yet it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done.

And God knows these tensions, He sees our hearts. And if He called you to entrepreneurship, then you have what it takes to endure the journey. And somehow, while pressing into faith, you’ll find yourself refined and molded in your character as time goes on.

Motherhood: The Undoing of Control

Let me tell you guys a story. I’m a creature of habit. I like my schedule and early mornings. I thrive in routine. Which can be a good thing. Until unexpected sick days happen or Micah woke up 8 times last night or my expectations get crushed in circumstances I can’t control.

Motherhood has been a test of flexibility of letting go of control to simply be available to love and take care of my little buddy. A few weeks ago on a Tuesday, I got a message from daycare telling me that Micah had an ear infection and needed to be picked up. Which led me to spend most of the work day at the doctors office and cuddling with him.

I had a lot that I was hoping to get done that day, and tbh was feeling pretty anxious about feeling behind. And then a thought came to me that gave me a lot of peace – If God planned each day of my life even before I began to breathe, then certainly He planned this day. {Psalm 139:16}

And if this is what He planned for me to do today, then I’m living in His will and can trust Him with what didn’t get done.

A Shift in Perspective

Instead of tying to type emails with a fussy baby on my shoulder, (Never works. I don’t know why I even try.) I needed to remind myself of God’s goodness and shake the stress of unmet expectations.

It’s spring time in Arkansas, the trees are bursting with flowers, seventy degrees, sunshine. I hop on the bike with Micah in tow and we start on a bike ride around the neighborhood.

Don’t let your heart be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me. (John 14:1)

And the gratitude that filled my heart completely melted away the anxiousness. In just a moment, I came to the realization of how I was living in an answered prayer. A life I used to dream about and pray for.

I remember my single years praying for a husband and now married to the best man I could ask for. I remember the months that went by trying to get pregnant and now have the sweetest little boy that I love so much. I remember the early years of my business of struggling to find healthy boundaries and now have flexibility where I get to have afternoons off with my son.

All these things are radical good gifts from the Lord. And above all, experiencing the assurance and joy of being with Jesus and letting him love me in the middle of my stress.

I share all of this to say that whatever season you may find yourself in, God’s goodness is always present. Even when we can’t see it or understand it, He’s the one that’s in control & holds all things together. 

At the end of the day, He truly knows what’s good for us. If you’re finding yourself stuck in discouragement –  remember what He’s done, worship Him in thanksgiving and wait patiently for Him to act. (Psalm 37:7)

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